Caught in transition

I made the decision I felt was right, and now here I am asking myself "What do I want?"  I know it was a hasty decision I didn't pray over......so now here I am questioning my decision.  I quit my job because I felt this overwhelming need for me to be at home with McKenna.  We had our taxes to fall back on, things would start looking up for the company, everything will work out.  Well.....here I am 8 weeks into being a stay at home mom and looking for a job.  I am pulling at my hair going crazy!  I apply for jobs and then when I go for an interview I cry because I will have to leave McKenna.  But really what choice am I left with?  Savings is running out, Jaime is trying to make ends meet, we have a house we can't afford to finish so we can move in, and the bills are not going to get paid if I don't get a job.  Its like a battle that I can't win.  I know God will put me where He wants me, but where is that???!!!! 
I want to blame someone, but the truth is, there is no one to blame.  My baby needs constant and consistent care to stay healthy and at this point, I am the only one who can really give that to her.   What is a mom supposed to do?  I need to remain positive, hopeful, and confident....if in nothing else, at least in God!  It seems that everyone I have counted on up until now can no longer fill the spaces that they used to.  Anyone who I could count on has let me down in one way or another.  Maybe that was part of His plan all along.  If I am counting on everyone else, how can I ever see the power of God?
So, all this ranting and I still have no answer.  I'll keep applying for jobs, praying about God's plan for me, and remaining faithful that I will end up exactly where I am supposed to be. Just another trial......

*On a more positive note.....McKenna gave me quite a scare a couple weeks back!  I really saw CF for the first time.  She was hacking and coughing and choking and throwing up. She had not appetite and cried all day. I was scared to say the least!  We went to the doctor, found out she had bronchitis and an ear infection.  We are on our last day of meds today and she is back to her same old self.  She is finally starting to eat again and her easy going personality is back.  Thank God!  I always go back to a verse from a Christian song "Our God is greater, our God is stronger...God You are higher than any other....Our God is Healer, awesome in power!"